I am a woman.

I am 5’4” but tend to slouch. I exercise several times a week for health, both physically and mentally, and for vanity. I read. I write. I watch a lot of television—binge-watching is a term meant for me.

I am not afraid of a lot of things. I’m scared of balloons.

My favorite foods are ice cream, grilled cheese sandwiches, and every single brand of pizza. I despise salads but choke them down anyway.

I don’t get enough sleep. I think I get too much.

I worry about everything and feel hopeless. I fear I can’t make any real changes, but I try. I have so many thoughts jumbled in my head and jammed in my throat until I say nothing at all.  I think I know a lot but know that I know nothing.

Who am I?

I’m a wife and a mom. I fight my dog for heat from my space heater under my desk. I don’t like Romantic Comedies that don’t star Tom Hanks. I have a crush on Ryan Reynolds and Will Smith and think both Kevin Hart and Jerry Seinfeld are over the top hilarious. I have crushes on them, too.

I have two kids, a white one and a black one. I don’t think one is better—one isn’t smarter, braver, or more attractive, or deserves more than the other. They are just my two kids, whom I love, and who drive me crazy at times.

Am I better than anyone else?

If I added my skin color to this list of identifiers, would that change who I am? Would that recategorize my importance? How could it?  Why would it?

Who am I?

I’m middle-aged, and I don’t know yet, not completely. I’m still learning and growing and trying to figure that out. I may not know who I am or how I can make a difference, but at least I know one thing for sure. I know who I don’t want to be.

I don’t want to be hateful. I don’t want to see people as those who deserve things and those who do not.

I don’t want to be part of a group who sees in black and white terms.

Who am I?

I want to be better. Not better than other people, but better than who I was a day ago, a month ago, ten years ago. I want to try to be better in the future. At least I can do that much.

This is who I am: https://youtu.be/Jk7LPpY8pXM